Lump

I feel so utterly useless today. I can't bend my knee enough to drive, I can't work from home, I can't sleep peacefully, I can't just wait and let things be what they will with D. This rollercoaster ride that's all in my head is making it hard for me to survive, and yet I can't just hang on and stop screaming, but I can't make myself just get off the ride. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Except maybe an unbroken heart.